Reconstruct:
to construct again; rebuild; make over
Hiking to the top of Devils Bridge!
I was in the check out line waiting to pay for my groceries when I began to stare at the items placed on the belt. Reconstruct.... the word that came to mind as I stared at the almond milk I was about to purchase. I immediately began to ponder the last 5 months of nutrional therapy sessions and the knowlwdge my nutritionist was giving me to reconstruct my mind and thinking around food, calories and weight. She advised me to stay away from almond milk because it has basically no nutritional value and switch to a soy or dairy based milk that has higher calories, fat and protein. Our bodies need these things...nutrients, they call it.
Most of my life I have had an incredibly flawed and distorted view of food, calories and weight. I developed body image issues in the third grade and a few years later developed a full blown eating disorder. After twelve years and a relapse, I am just now realizing that reconstructing my thoughts and attitude around food is key in my healing and recovery process. I am realizing I have to deconstruct and dismantle the foundation this world has built for me and partner with God and close friends to reconstruct a new Christ centered foundation. I tried for years to reconstruct on my own, however...I failed miserably. It really wasn't until a sermon I heard at church titled, "Jesus, the transparent one" where I realized that I had to be fully transparent and intentionally allow others I trusted into this space with me. Don't reconstruct alone.
A few in my reconstruction crew!
Romans 12:2
"Do not conform to the pattern of this world,
but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will"
The bible calls this idea of reconstruction the renewal of the mind. It takes hard work, time and intentional effort. I visited a friend not too long ago who had categories of scripture hung up on the wall in her room to help her in this very process of renewing her mind. Reconstruction is a theme that applies to each of us in all areas of our lives. If we don't reconstruct the way we think, we will find ourselves in the same broken cycles that keep us bound.
As I continued to medidate and pray on this idea of reconstruction, I began to think about other things the Lord is trying to reconstruct in my life. One of those things is conflict (I hate it with a passion!) but as humans, it is inevitable. I am learning that conflict in my friendships and relationships can be healthy and properly worked through, even if it doesn't feel good. Relationships are too important and valuable to simply just throw away or give up on even if that seems to be the easy way out. It is easier to run and avoid than it is to sit down and work things out. So, I am learning to reconstruct specific areas of my life.
As I continued to medidate and pray on this idea of reconstruction, I began to think about other things the Lord is trying to reconstruct in my life. One of those things is conflict (I hate it with a passion!) but as humans, it is inevitable. I am learning that conflict in my friendships and relationships can be healthy and properly worked through, even if it doesn't feel good. Relationships are too important and valuable to simply just throw away or give up on even if that seems to be the easy way out. It is easier to run and avoid than it is to sit down and work things out. So, I am learning to reconstruct specific areas of my life.
Smores at Nakias bachelorette!
What about you? I encourage each of you reading this to reflect on what might need to be constructed in your own life. How can you take the steps to get there? What lies have you believed that need to be reconstructed with truth, knowledge and faith?
Xo,
Beth
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